And We Know...

Okay so I moved back in to my mother's house and before I could catch my breath was moving back out. My mom was growing Illegal substances in her backyard and since I didn't want to be party to that I decided to move out. Thanks Ryan for talking me through it. It didn't really hit me until Tuesday last week. My mom is just like that but this is not something that I can just right off as her being crazy. So as I told Ryan, God took my back up plan and challenged me to put my trust in him to the test once again.
I am grateful that I am growing through this. Some areas in my life I have no problem trusting God in but other areas I fail miserably. The same day that it hit me that I would have to move out I was reading about Elijah. I was astounded because He did trust God completely in some ways. When he was challenging the Priest of Baal to a test about whose God could start the fire. When it came time for Elijah to call on God to send fire from heaven he dumped tons of water on the altar. He knew that God would have no problem sending fire down no matter what was on the altar. But in the next Chapter he is asking God to kill him because he is so upset that his enemies were chasing him. What a contrast! Even amidst Elijah's doubt God sends and Angel to take care of him. What a picture of my life right now. Even while I am doubting Him he is taking care of me. I know that I have an amazing church family who will help me out. But sometimes I just want a normal family.
I am staying at Chantal and Justin's house this week. They graciously let me use their spare bedroom. Until this morning I didn't know where I would stay at the end of this week. Well the answer came this morning. My friend Addie said I could stay with her and her parents this summer. She lives in Auburn. Addie and I lived together at Ecola and I can move in next week. It is of course completely perfect. Thanks God! Still pray that I will find something come August or September. Here is a verse that I have been contemplating this week:
"And we know, that God causes all things to work together for Good to those that love God, to those that are called according to his purpose." Romans 8:28
What blows me away are the first three words. "And we know..." I pray that I can always have the same assurance that God will work together all things for good. That in times of trials I will automatically completely trust Him.

Hello Again!

Okay so it has been way too long since my last post. Life has been busy. Well to exscuse my lack of writing my mom's internet has been down. I am now staying at my mom's house. My grandma asked me to move out last thursday. So i packed up and left. My grandma said that she didn't like the way that I live my life. All I do is hang out and I live a very unintentional life. After reflection and prayer I can see why my grandma would think that. From a non beleievers stand point, my life would be very pointless. I tried to explain that I do not base what I choose to do with my life on her opinion but rather on God's. It is funny to me that she saw my life as unintentional because I strive to be so intentional about the way that I live. I try to actively pursue Christ. But if Christ isn't apart of your life it would seem foolishness.
If you remember please pray for me. I don't know how long I will be able to stand living at my mom's. Pray that I will find somewhere else to live and that I will trust God in all that I do.
I'll leave you with a a few verses that seem to be what I am always contemplating.
"Consider it all joy my bretheren when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance and let endurance have it's perfect result so that you will be perfect and complete lacking in nothing." James 1:2-4

Unconditional.

I wrote this poem several years ago just thought I qould share it. It is pretty hard for me to share my poems but I hope you enjoy it. :)
This poem was written for my Savior and God.

You love me, I deny You,
Your arms reach out to embrace me,
I turn away and run to the world.
You gave your life to me and I give you what's left.
You love me unconditionally, my love has conditions.
Your heart weeps for me, My heart hardens towards you.
I beg for forgivness and you grant me pardon.
You give me peace and I rejoice in Your love.
You give me the strength to do your will.
I fall and fall and fall and you pick up the pieces and make me whole.

Living A Cross Centered LIfe by C.J. Mahaney

Ryan recommended this book to me. Living a Cross Centered Life, by C.J. Mahaney, is an excellent book. I read three quarters of it today at work because it was terribly slow. I had ten customers over five hours. It would have been excruciating but I had this book in my purse that I had been slowly perusing over the last week. It was a real blessing to be able to read most of it today. I wanted to share some quotes from the book. Hopefully they will challenge you the way it did me. The book as the title stated is centered around the cross and how it should permeate our whole life.
I don't know how much of a flow this post will have. I may just throw some random quotes and you can think them over.
"The glory of the gospel is this: The one from whom we need to be saved is the one who saves us." R.C. Sproul
I really love this. I have never thought about it in that way. Isn't amazing that we have been saved. I have heard variations of people saying that throughout most of my life. But what have we been saved from? We have been saved from God's own wrath. "Only those aware of God's wrath can be amazed at God's grace." says Mahaney. In the same thought once we become aware of the punishment that we deserve from God, then and only then can we fully recognize our need for grace. But not only our need but the true extent of the grace that has been offered to us. This quote that Mahaney put in his book by John Stott is perfectly said, "Divine love triumphed over divine wrath, by divine self sacrifice." Jesus took our judgement! I think sometimes in the Christian life that we nullify the greatness of this because we hear it so much. But reading this book has shown me that we should fall on our knees and thank God for saving us from the wrath that we deserve. I have found new passion for the power of the cross through this book. Every time we hear the gospel message it should remind us of our sin that put Jesus there. "We may try to wash our hands of responsibility like Pilate, but out attempt would be futile, as futile as his. For there is blood on our hands." says John Stott. I don't know about you but that struck me right in my heart. Knowing fully that my sin is what caused Jesus to bleed. But also knowing that God caused that to happen because he loves us. So many verses point to God's love for us. I pondered this today was awestruck by it. Well I highly recommend this book to anyone who wants to have a more cross centered life. Thanks Ryan for the suggesting the book and thanks to C.J. Mahaney for this wonderful book.
:) Jenaya

"The Office" Party!

Last Thursday a few of us "Office" fans got together to watch and celebrate that new episodes are finally back on NBC. The Blossers graciously had us over. Us being Chantal , Justin, Emily, Dave and Me. Chantal and Justin dressed up as Dwight and Angela. Becky was a number two pencil and I was Pam. Well here are some pictures. I hope you enjoy them.

First week of work...

Okay so the first week of work has been pretty tiring. Mostly because I was a bum for almost three months and it takes a little while to get used to being on your feet for eight hours a day. But I have been enjoying being productive. Also it is nice to be tired when I get in bed at night. Yesterday I took a 2 hour nap and then still went to bed at eleven. Becoming adjusted to two different stores is also a challenge. But hey what's life with out a little challenge right. :)
On a different note I have not stayed the night at my Grandma's house in almost five weeks! first I had no gas money, then I dog sat and house sat for the Allens and Carters. Now I have things going on every night this week, either at the church or The Blossers or funerals or work. So I don't know if you could say I live there anymore. I like to say that I am homeless and live out of my car. :) Well just wanted to update everyone on my life. :) Until next time.
Jenaya

I got a job!

Okay so good news, after almost three months of unemployment, I got a job! I am working at Forza again. If you didn't know I worked at a Forza in Bonney Lake. Forza is a coffe company. I am working at the one in top foods in puyallup and south hill. Thanks to all who have been praying! Now I am trying to adjust to being on my feet all day. Well just wanted to write something real quick to let anyone who didn't know yet. By the way I haven't been blogging because I am house sitting for the Carters and they don't have internet. :) Well I am off to work!!!! :)
Jenaya