hmmm...

I really appreciated Ryan's sermon on Sunday. I think that I needed to be reminded that no one is out of reach for God's grace. Sometimes I see how far away some of the people I love are from God and think that they will never come into a right relationship with God. But I need to consider more that it is only through God's grace that I am walking with Him. He is the one that draws me to him each day. I should be thankful for the amazingness of that. I did not on my own accord decide to follow Jesus. I think that is something that, while I know, I should be living out more. Just because outwardly I seem to be taking all the right steps toward God, sometimes inwardly, I am in rebellion to my Savior. I am, without God's ,no better than the worst of sinners. I get so caught up in making sure that everyone thinks I am doing right, that I forget to actually check myself and make sure that I am doing it all for God's glory and not my own. I also get jealous of families that have such great relationships with eachother. I am frustrated with the fact that I am a part of a family that is so disconnected. All of this to say I am not having a thankful heart. Sure sometimes I do but alot I don't.
I want to do ALL things for God's glory. So when I pray for my friends and family I want to do that out of a true concern for their souls and not because it is what I should do. I want to be honest with my own sinfullness so that I can be more in tune with God's grace. I want to be painful aware when I am doing things to please others and not God so that I can ask God to re focus my attention back to his Kingdom. I want to never forget the wrath that God took me away from so that I can be constantly thankful for his Son. I am sick so my head is foggy so I hope this makes some amount of sense.
I will leave you with a verse I have been thinking on lately.
"For the mind set on the flesh is death but the mind set on the Spirit is life and peace."
Romans 8:6

Pictures from my day at the zoo!

Some of these are just of the cute animals and some are of the cute kids. The one of Rylie and Me by the polar bear is funny because I squatted down to be on her level but then she squatted down like me. Thanks Amy for the picutres! Again I had fun! Thanks Angela for inviting me and getting me in for free! Well hope you like to pictures.

Musing from my busy life!

Well today I went to the zoo with Amy, Angela and their respective children. It was really fun. I think that I ended up playing with Keagan and Rylie more than hanging out with Amy and Angela. It was fun though to see the kids excitement over the animals. I saw this lady who come to my coffee shop regularly and she thought Rylie was my daughter. This proves my point that I look thirty. Now their is nothing wrong with looking thirty but when you are twenty-one you want to look you age. 

I am soooooo busy this week. I thought that I would have tons of free time but as it turns out I have almost no free time this week. I have managed to fill up everyday with stuff to do. Maybe there is a reason why I had this week off. I was really irritated at first that I wasn't getting that many hours but it seems that God knew that I needed time to get stuff done. I have orientation on friday to start school at Green River on Monday. I have to take my compass test and actually apply! :) I don't even know for sure what classes I will be taking. I don't procrastinate or anything. :) I actually should get an award for being the biggest procrastinator on the face of the planet. 

Last night Jill and I went to Shenanigan's on the waterfront in Tacoma. Their desserts are super yummy and only two dollars. We walked up and down the waterfront. It was really nice. We talked about school and favorite authors. It was a good time. I worked out last night while I was watching this lifetime original movie called Fat Like Me. This girl who is a skinny jock goes undercover as a fat person for a school project. It was a good motivator while I was working out. 

David Johnny and I went to lunch on tuesday and we mapped out some activities and such for the summer. We are going to have a movie night at the church on the lawn. We were trying to decide what movie we would play. I suggested Enchanted and they wanted to watch Lord of the Rings, and any other guy movie you could possibly imagine. I also thought that Pride and Prejudice was a great movie too! :) Well I think we decided that they would choose a guy movie and I would choose the girl movie and we would show both. 

I got the rest of my stuff from my grandma's house today. See what I mean about being busy and on Monday I had dinner at Aaron and Becky's house. Usually I have maybe one or two things going on in one week. I have like three things everyday! It is nice to be busy but I just don't do well with a full calendar. What am I going to do once school starts! Oh man if I ever get married and have kids I don't know how I will handle it. That's probably why I'll be single forever. I can only handle myself. I am alot to handle. :) Ryan says that is why I have to get married because I need someone to keep me together. Well I must go I am off to the Lent's to learn how to mow the lawn. :) 

Risk, the game of world domination!

I am trying to memorize Romans 8.  I have about the first 8 verses down-ish.  I have only been saying them in my head. So If you see me ask me to say them to you. I really enjoy memorizing so I want to try and do it more. 

 I am at the Hood Canal right now with the Oldrights. We played Risk, the game of world domination. Johnny and I were the last two playing and we stopped for the night. Johnny said that he would be okay with saying that he won. But if you know me at all I will not give up a fight until I have absolutely lost! I told him that I would be okay with saying that I won. I played so much risk my student year at Ecola. Luke and his friend were always playing and since I was hanging out with Rachel and she was hanging out with Luke was always around a risk game. So I got a little practice. I am not much good still. The game is going to take forever because neither John and I have a strategy. 

Hopefully tomorrow is nice out. I want to not be cold for a whole day. I talked to my Dad today and he said that it was one hundred degrees out. Well I miss everyone who I won't see at Church. It is nice though that I don't have anything going on at Church. I won't know what to do with myself. No sunday school and no children's church. Weird. :) Well I have most of next week off so I am going to go down to Green River Community College and try and see if I qualify for free school. Angela, Amy and I are going to the zoo in wednesday. I am really excited! I haven't been to the zoo in years. It should be fun. hopefully I'll have pictures. I actually have quite a few things going on next week.

I went to the progressive dinner in friday. Jill came with me which was really nice. It was her first ladies activity. She and I had a great time. It has been nice to have another single girl my age around. Well I need to go to bed. Until next time. :)

As of lately.

Well I have been at the Oldright's house for one week. They haven't kicked me out yet!  YAY!!! No it has been really good. Everyone has been great. My last post has caused quite a stir! I won't go in to it. I think that God has predestined that I will not be mentioning the C word on my blog anymore. :)

My hours at work have been cut way back. Next week I only work 5 hours. That doesn't even pay for a tank of gas anymore! So I may look for another job. Becky and I went to coffee and dessert today. It was really nice to just sit and talk. I haven't seen much of The Blosser's lately and I miss them. :(

Rachel made some changes to her blog all by herself. This is a huge feat for her since she is not the most computer savvy person. You should probably congratulate her! Someday she will not have to call me every time she needs to change something on her blog. Until that day I remain her faithful and supportive technical support. 

I might be going to school this summer. Green River is offering free schooling to 250 students with low income. I definitely qualify! Especially since I am only working 5 hours. They pay for books and everything! It would be awesome if it worked out. I am praying that God's will be done.

Pastor David and I met for lunch today. We went over ideas and thoughts about the high school and college ministry. I am really excited to help out with both and to see how God uses David in our church. I have to go to bed now. I have to open tomorrow and wake up at 5AM!!!!

Ugh! 

Jenaya

Moving once again... :)

Well I decided to stay with the Oldrights for the month of June instead of my friend Addie. Jani offered to let me stay last sunday. I was having trouble deciding where to go. Both were good options. The Oldrights live closer to my work and church. Plus I know all of them fairly well. :) They have been really great. Jani has been making sure that I am comfortable and well fed. I was worried at first that I would be intruding on their family time but they have been welcoming and inviting. Jani says I fit in because my name starts with a 'J'. I guess Bob is the odd man out. :) 

After I am done house sitting for the Lents Bob and Jani asked me to house sit Bob's mom's house until it sells. Which is pretty awesome because It is huge for one and two I would be there all by myself. I have been longing lately to live by myself. I am sure after a little bit I might get lonely but Bob and Jani live a couple houses down. What an amazing answer to prayer. God has not only provided a place for me to stay but a mansion. Praise God for his continued provision. 

on nothing in particular.

Chantal and I went for a walk today. It was really nice. We both want to lose a little weight so it was nice just to get out and get exercise. It has been fun to stay the week with the Bassham's. They are both really funny and keep me entertained.
My friend Isaac was here for A day. He lives in The Dalles. I have for the last week or so been talking to him about Calvinism. I have just been showing him verses that support certain points. He gets really defensive. I try really hard to not argue with him. I just want to discuss it. Hopefully it will get him thinking. I have just as of late, due to certain books that have been recommended me by Ryan, really grasping the idea of God's sovereignty. Sure I believed the God is sovereign. But really deepening my understanding of this aspect of God. He asked me why I was so intent on getting him to think on it. I just love how it has strengthened my relationship. It gives every aspect of my walk more fulfillment.
Last night I hung out with a friend. She went to master's and I have been thinking about going there in a year. I wanted to get some insight in to the school. She loved it. Master's is really expensive but it is really quality college. I guess I am just thinking out loud. I just don't know...
Well something to pray about. I really don't have that much to blog about but I want to get better at writing more posts. So this one is all over the place. Nothing that exciting has happened in my life since two days ago. Something to leave you with. I am right now wearing a Tye dye headband. :)